So I'm Going to See Him Tomorrow

And I'm totally unsure what the heck I'm going to do. Although I know I'm terrified. Today I have gone from weeping because I love him so much, to weeping because I hate him so much. I don't know which is worse. I guess I'm really scared because I don't know which is scarier: him hating me or him wanting me back. I don't know what I'm going to do. I just have no idea.