Amazing Grace

Tonight we watched the movie Amazing Grace. As far as historical movies go, it was pretty good. However, despite the title, whoever made it did a good job of leaving God out of something He should have had a big part of. I don't know whether William Wilberforce was a Christian or not, but they had some about God in the beginning of the movie, but then He just sort of disappears.

Very strange.

However, I do admire the movie because there was no fowl language except for what was accepted and typical of the time. Also, even though there was a romance in the movie that played a huge part in the story, there was no PDA (public display of affection). No kissing even! I always admire that in a movie, especially because I for one do not want to kiss until I'm engaged.

Not to mention the powerful message in the movie. It effectively shows how difficult change can be, but also how rewarding the struggle. Wilberforce was shouted down by many of his friends, and dealt with a painful health problem at the same time most of us would have taken medical leave for ulcers. But he kept going, and we see his work today. Utterly amazing.

So I'm Going to See Him Tomorrow

And I'm totally unsure what the heck I'm going to do. Although I know I'm terrified. Today I have gone from weeping because I love him so much, to weeping because I hate him so much. I don't know which is worse. I guess I'm really scared because I don't know which is scarier: him hating me or him wanting me back. I don't know what I'm going to do. I just have no idea.